love is a fucked up way to live but its the only way i know. love feels like home, its where i belong

i think i got these from stockholm street style but i cant remember. anyway i just love them especially the first one. love the effect used.

okay a few random things to talk about. is it wierd to write lyrics that you dont agree with like this title lyric. i like it as a title lyric but im not sure if its true..

i try not to write lyrics coz i cant write happy things so i end up writing and getting really depressed! im having a bit of deja vu at the moment. writing again like i used to. it was really watching this interview with eminem that got me writing again. he was talking about where he gets inspiration from and something in me clicked (not literally) and i just wanted to write.

also having deja vu about the music im listening to. i was just listening to some stuff from the killers fourth album with was really my summer album last year and changing my blog title picture. i havent done that since last summer!

so hope your all doing okay and speak soon x

dont let go, never give up, its such a wonderful life

this is a montage/collage (what the hell do you call it?!) from the bbc website. i think ive used all these pictures but they look really cool together.
so i thought for this post i could go through the top five of the 'bbc sound for 2010' list. so here goes!

1. ellie goulding-i just checked out my blog and i realised that ive never written about ellie goulding so heres a first! she won this title and i do love her music. under the sheets has really grown on me and she is the one new talent (except marina) that me and my friend agree on. i just love how soft and beautiful her music is. its like snowpatrol but softer and more dance sort of music. i guess shes more electric than snowpatrol. ellies music is really made to fit the dance genre but snowpatrol is more acoustic and about the guitars and shes about the tempo and everything. her music is a bit dubstep. and that was me trying to explain an artists sound! i really am crap at explaining just check out under the sheets!
2. marina and the diamonds-heres a singer i have talked about before and i just love her music. shes like a modern kate bush doing pop. what a beautiful voice and her lyrics make so much sense but they are very clever. oh i just thought of the word to describe ellie goulding- electro pop. so back to marina, i love all her songs but one of my favourites has to be i am not a robot. marina makes some great music videos so check those out on youtube. she just has lots of fun with the music videos, i love it when artists do that. i think it was cornerstone by the arctic monkeys when all you have is stupid alex turner (hes a cool guy just hate his hair) just singing to the camera for 4 mins. hate arctic monkeys for that! the killers also make amazing music videos. right back to our list..
3. delphic-i dont know a lot about them but doubt is just a great song. they really make such beautiful music.
4. hurts-i LOVE this band and i only know one of their songs but its just beautiful. i know normally the title lyrics i use are very depressing. actually i cant remember when i used a happy title lyric but this title lyric is from hurts and its just beautiful. their song, wonderful life reminds me a lot of dont give up by kate bush and peter gabriel. they are both about not giving up and staying strong. they were both also made for a time of recession when people want to just give up. i love songs which have a strong message.
5. the drums-ive just got completely obsessed with their song lets go surfing. maybe its to do with the snow! im getting quite fed up of the snow and someone told me its gonna carry on like this for six weeks. six fucking weeks! i hope its not true

so thats the top five. i looked at the full list but the rest i havent heard of except that stupid daisy girl. her music is dreadful. i hope it doesnt do well coz then it will always be on the radio and i do not wanna hear it.

so if youre bored check out these artists or go to cinema and watch sherlock holmes coz its amazing. such a fun film to watch cya x

look in my eyes, youre killing me, killing me all i wanted was you

doesnt that feel so long ago? i feel so far from summer right now wrapped up in my dressing gown thinking about getting up to make a cup of tea.

sorry about the depressing title lyric. i dunno what has come over me. its just to deep into winter to have a cute title lyric!

just listening to pink live. she was on the chris moyles show on radio 1 so im listening to it on the iplayer coz i was in school! love her! she has the coolest talking voice. her and kidsister both have the best american accents. i dont normally like an american accent but they should do a song together coz it would just be really beautiful.

my hair is looking amazing today! its just gone all curly with lots of body, it l0oks like something from a l'oreal advert!

at the moment im debating whether to buy a camera or a great pair of jeans. the camera would mean you could actually see me but a great pair of jeans would just be such a good investment. this pink concert is just immense check it out here about 2 and a half hours into the show (i dont think you can hear this if your not in the uk but im not sure)

okay i think im gonna do my nails now for the weekend. how about black this weekend?

love you all. have a great weekend and i cant wait to tell you what i actually end up buying! x

ps if you want to listen to some beautiful music then check out the big gig in the sky by pink floyd. just such a beautiful piece of music cya x

i dont give a fuck coz God sent me to piss the world off

so as you can see ive gone a bit grease crazy! me and my friend watched grease when we were like 11 and we both thought it was a disgusting film about dirty people (ive changed so much!) and really it is a disgusting film about dirty people but thats why i love it so much now! i watched it again a few months ago for the first time in ages and just totally fell in love with it and i just watched it again on saturday night and i just have such a big kunikie (how the hell do you spell his name?!) crush although i hear hes an alcoholic old man now (why do all good things come to an end?)

those songs are just constantly in my head now as well as eminems album slim shady LP which is just so genius. its 10 years old now but eminem just had so much energy and ideas and just general fucked up stories to tell. nowadays hes matured a lot which i think is a good thing for him as a person but not for his music. definitely check out the album but dont stick it on when youre mums in the room, all parents HATE eminem. he is really offensive but thats what i love about him. he isnt afraid of saying exactly what he thinks, he just gets all the shit out there. okay and now since listening the the album ive been swearing way more! btw title lyric is eminems (it cant really have been from grease could it!!)

so my nearest and dearest it is time to leave you.

love you forever and always (wow im getting so emotional!)

rebecca x

i pull up thorns from our ripped bodies and let the blood fall in my mouth

the lyrics are snowpatrols from their second album. i was very excited about this lyric when i bought the album two years ago coz i was going through this whole stupid emo phase and its such a dark lyric and song and is called headlights on dark roads. definitely check out that album. it really grew on me and was really my album for last winter.
the pictures are to go with the lyrics so very vampirish and dark. just very wintery. all my posts seem to be about the weather at the moment! im so boring!
so whats been happening in my life:
i watched desperately seeking susan which is so amazing. i cant really describe it, its just amazing in that classic way that could never be replicated.
im currently eating cookie dough ben and jerrys and its pure heaven! its buy one get one free at sainsburys so we stocked up on ice cream and its just beautiful.
i dont feel like you guys know me that well so i heres a random list of stuff about me:
1. i have cataracts in both my eyes that ive always had. i was just born with them but they dont really bother me so i havent got them removed
2. im such a massive britney fan. i dont think i talk about britney on this blog enough. shes not my guilty pleasure coz i just dont believe you should feel guilty about what music you like but i know she is for a lot of people.
3. im in love with the name alfie. i checked out the meaning on wikipedia and it means something like one who is couseled by elves. my friend doesnt think its a good idea to have a kid called alfie coz there are like no normal alfies. im still sticking by my love for the name at alfie. im very stubborn about matters like this.
4. waterloo road is on tv tonight! im so excited! im actually hate tv but there are a few things i have to watch every week like mock the week
5. im thinking of cutting my hair really short like rihanna style.
6. my parents are divorced. did i ever mention that? its so unimportant to me coz they got divorced so long ago and it was such an uneventful divorce. my dad just moved out and went to live in a flat and they got a divorce. neither of them was dating anyone else and they both havent got remarried and i love only having one parent. my dad probably wouldn't let me do half the things i do but because he doesnt live with us he doesnt really tell me off or anything. he did used to try but then when my grandad died he got really depressed and since then he lets my mum have the final say on everything. i love having divorced parents and btw i am so mot traumatised by it all like everyone presumes i am.

so thats a long post! sorry once i start i cant stop! have a good night x

feeling my faith erode

that title is a lyric of muse and i just really related to it and since this post is all about muse i stuck it there looking all awkward as a title! muse have some very strange lyrics but their new song uprising really does have some strange lyrics. here are some of them:

they will not force us, they will stop degrading us, they will not control us, we will be victorious

when i heard those lyrics the first thing i thought of is prostitutes. the lyrics just left me with an image in my head of prostitutes doing a march, campaigning against the goverments attitude towards them. its strange. i think all of their songs are sort of about sex and prostitution and shit like that. like listen to the lyrics of plug in baby or time is running out. but so do arctic monkeys always talk about prostitution. i think prostitutes are probably very interesting to write about. i guess i get inspired by prostitutes by fashion. i dont dress slutty or anything but my favourite colours are red and black and i own like two red dresses which is what prostitutes used to wear. and i love lace and anything sheer, i really do love slutty fashion! i do also love wearing polo necks and layers so as usual i like both extremes! thanx for the comments btw x

writing songs/lyrics

i dont know about you but when a few years ago i started writing lyrics. i dont play an instrument so there was no music to them. just lyrics. i never really write them much now but i used to be obsessed! so i was just reading some of them this morning (and cringing abit!) but some of them were quite decent! ive never been into rhyming so not many of them rhyme (when they rhyme it just sounds too neat!) but here is one song i wrote (minus music):

CONFUSION

Why do we always want the wrong things?

Why do good girls love bad boys?

Why do we look at what we dont want to see?

Why do we change everything after hearing something so unimportant?
Why do small things change the world?

When you think you know yourself and you find out you dont

When you feel so confident and someone breaks it like this

And your left standing there, wanting to cry

Wanting to curl up and die

Whys life so hard?

Is it only me who wants to scream out for help?

Am i the only one who hates and loves something at the same time?

Why am i so confused about myself?

Why is life like this?
I need you

Every step is so fucking hard

I cant do this alone

I need you to help me get through

Each day, one day at a time

Coz your the only one who can do it

And you know that

But you dont give a shit

You bastard

I guess this song sould really be called loneliness. its quite sad, sort of deep and hurt. i could tell you the story but i wanna leave it to your imaginations. coz i want you to understand this story inyour own terms. to make it your own.

ps the lyrics are copyright so if you wanna use them please tell me first and give me full credit.