you talk about me like you own me baby thats not fair i told you i had someone else

i love this magical world of black and white..

i think today ill just let the pictures do the talking.....

xxx

i was a playboy from dubai to paris.. made our acquaintances on a sheet less mattress she pressed my lips she said this wont last long...

life is pretty shitty at the moment though i feel bad saying that coz after seeing what people went through in the holocaust, i mean thats real shit.

sorry you probably dont know what im on about!

i went on a history trip with my class to london and we went to the imperial war museum. it was quite a sobering experience. its like suddenly you realise that life is so easy. we watched accounts of people who went through the concentration camps, they saw their family die in front of them and they couldnt do anything. its just a scary thought.

so after watching that we then went to covent gardens and i did some serious retail therapy! shopping really is the best thing to get a smile out of me when im down!

so back to my first point. yeah life is being a bit shitty at the moment. just had some horrible mocks today and got even more tomorrow. i havent learnt for any of them! no that doesnt really deserve an exclamation mark. we had modules and then i thought id take a bit of a break from learning and now im too exhausted to learn, im gonna fail every fucking last one. i hate doing this coz its just so depressing. and today i found out my friend whos mum died last year, her dad has leukemia. its just so hard on her. so right im making a positive list:

• music totally helps when you cant go shopping! currently completely obsessed with the virgins who provided the wonderful title lyrics from their song private affair.
• im not failing science so at least that a start!
• i can still look at beautiful pictures and get weird and wonderful fashion inspirations. everywhere i walked in london, i saw different people wearing such amazing outfits, ive got so many ideas for outfits!
• i have my wonderful friends to laugh at! today my friend rivka brought a loo roll to school coz she has a cold and the teacher thought she has stolen it from the school toilets! shes a classic!
• GLEE! that is the reason for my happiness. just watched an episode, they should seriously show it to people going through depression, its just amazing!
• i still have chocolate. food really is the best when youre down and chocolate... its just immense

but most importantly i still have my dreams, ideas and inspirations. im actually feeling way happier after making that list! i advise anyone feeling down to make a positive list now! thanx for all your amazing blogs keeping me inspired x

youve been acting awful tough lately, smoking a lot of cigarettes lately, but inside youre just a little baby

i saved the picture above under the name 'tattooed beautiful boy with cig looking beautiful and lost' and i saved the guy underneath under the name 'smoking shirtless beauty'. i think that says it all!

can we just talk about how genius i am to find this lyric?! how well does it go with the photos?!! i was just listening to marina and the diamonds and i heard these lyrics in her beautiful song i am not a robot and theyre just perfect for the gorgeous photos.

i dont normally like male models but i do have a folder of the male models i think are just damn right beautiful and these two are just amazing. i dunno what it, maybe the tattoos or the beautiful 'broken but dont give a shit' look. does that make sense?!

okay lets talk music:

im still totally obsessed with glee. its just immense and just makes me smile so much! just writing about it gets me excited!! oh im a sad old soul!

im currently listening to the skream remix of in for the kill by la roux. its all dubstep and beautiful. oh i love it!

other bands im loving are the virgins, the drums and this morning i heard mr brightside by the killers on the radio: it was an epic moment singing along with a hairbrush while halfway through getting dressed so i was wearing my school shirt with my pj bottoms and my hair in one big curly mess! theres something amazing about hearing a song you love on the radio even if you have the album so could listen to it at any time. its those first few notes, the big adrenaline rush, is it weird i get adrenaline rushes from the killers and not from roller coasters (i hate roller coasters with a passion)?

sorry im so bad with writing posts. i try and keep up with all your blogs but i dont really have that much time to write. i was writing my english AS coursework with my friend and just coming up with total examiners porn (explanation: writing an essay that is so beautifully written and quoting all the right quotes if i dont get a good mark for this essay HEADS WILL ROLL!) For my essay im analysing an article from Grazia which is just wonderfully written and even has a reference to Florence (yes THE Florence from florence and the machine)

so it is time to leave you beautiful people once again. im going to london on monday on a school history trip just for one night but i cant wait to tell you all about it! x