i was a playboy from dubai to paris.. made our acquaintances on a sheet less mattress she pressed my lips she said this wont last long...

life is pretty shitty at the moment though i feel bad saying that coz after seeing what people went through in the holocaust, i mean thats real shit.

sorry you probably dont know what im on about!

i went on a history trip with my class to london and we went to the imperial war museum. it was quite a sobering experience. its like suddenly you realise that life is so easy. we watched accounts of people who went through the concentration camps, they saw their family die in front of them and they couldnt do anything. its just a scary thought.

so after watching that we then went to covent gardens and i did some serious retail therapy! shopping really is the best thing to get a smile out of me when im down!

so back to my first point. yeah life is being a bit shitty at the moment. just had some horrible mocks today and got even more tomorrow. i havent learnt for any of them! no that doesnt really deserve an exclamation mark. we had modules and then i thought id take a bit of a break from learning and now im too exhausted to learn, im gonna fail every fucking last one. i hate doing this coz its just so depressing. and today i found out my friend whos mum died last year, her dad has leukemia. its just so hard on her. so right im making a positive list:

• music totally helps when you cant go shopping! currently completely obsessed with the virgins who provided the wonderful title lyrics from their song private affair.
• im not failing science so at least that a start!
• i can still look at beautiful pictures and get weird and wonderful fashion inspirations. everywhere i walked in london, i saw different people wearing such amazing outfits, ive got so many ideas for outfits!
• i have my wonderful friends to laugh at! today my friend rivka brought a loo roll to school coz she has a cold and the teacher thought she has stolen it from the school toilets! shes a classic!
• GLEE! that is the reason for my happiness. just watched an episode, they should seriously show it to people going through depression, its just amazing!
• i still have chocolate. food really is the best when youre down and chocolate... its just immense

but most importantly i still have my dreams, ideas and inspirations. im actually feeling way happier after making that list! i advise anyone feeling down to make a positive list now! thanx for all your amazing blogs keeping me inspired x

youve been acting awful tough lately, smoking a lot of cigarettes lately, but inside youre just a little baby

i saved the picture above under the name 'tattooed beautiful boy with cig looking beautiful and lost' and i saved the guy underneath under the name 'smoking shirtless beauty'. i think that says it all!

can we just talk about how genius i am to find this lyric?! how well does it go with the photos?!! i was just listening to marina and the diamonds and i heard these lyrics in her beautiful song i am not a robot and theyre just perfect for the gorgeous photos.

i dont normally like male models but i do have a folder of the male models i think are just damn right beautiful and these two are just amazing. i dunno what it, maybe the tattoos or the beautiful 'broken but dont give a shit' look. does that make sense?!

okay lets talk music:

im still totally obsessed with glee. its just immense and just makes me smile so much! just writing about it gets me excited!! oh im a sad old soul!

im currently listening to the skream remix of in for the kill by la roux. its all dubstep and beautiful. oh i love it!

other bands im loving are the virgins, the drums and this morning i heard mr brightside by the killers on the radio: it was an epic moment singing along with a hairbrush while halfway through getting dressed so i was wearing my school shirt with my pj bottoms and my hair in one big curly mess! theres something amazing about hearing a song you love on the radio even if you have the album so could listen to it at any time. its those first few notes, the big adrenaline rush, is it weird i get adrenaline rushes from the killers and not from roller coasters (i hate roller coasters with a passion)?

sorry im so bad with writing posts. i try and keep up with all your blogs but i dont really have that much time to write. i was writing my english AS coursework with my friend and just coming up with total examiners porn (explanation: writing an essay that is so beautifully written and quoting all the right quotes if i dont get a good mark for this essay HEADS WILL ROLL!) For my essay im analysing an article from Grazia which is just wonderfully written and even has a reference to Florence (yes THE Florence from florence and the machine)

so it is time to leave you beautiful people once again. im going to london on monday on a school history trip just for one night but i cant wait to tell you all about it! x

you say i love you boy, i know you lie, i trust you all the same, i dont know why

im not sure where any of these pictures are from but theyre all just gorgeous. dont you love the rumpled hair of the model in the first and last picture?! i love that sort of hair on guys. a bit like michael ceras hair in juno, just a great length.

anyway i havent told you yet the amazing news that i got an a in my gcse maths! i did it in november and got my mark a couple of days ago which is very exciting!

so last night i went to the sixth form open evening in the school that i wanna go to for sixth form and it was really interesting to speak to the a level teachers so that i actually sort of understand what im gonna be doing next year! i wanna do physics, chemistry, maths and business studies leading to doing physics in uni. im already doing an AS this year so i have some idea of what its gonna be like next year but it should be interesting moving schools and a levels are very different to gcses.

anyway enough about my education! lets talk music! the title lyrics are from biffy clyro from their song many of horror (which is grammatically incorrect but never mind) . i love this song its so beautiful and the lead singer (whos name ive forgotten) has the voice of an angel. i dont mean that he sounds like dido or anything he just has a gorgeous voice. (how many times have i said gorgeous in this post?!) also im obsessed with coco who records music under the name i blame coco. she has a song called caeser which she did with robyn and its coco has such a cool voice and and robyn has such a cool voice and together... its just amazing. if your interested in some new music this year then check it out and enjoy!

hot chip also have an amazing song out called one life stand which is gonna be huge! its got a really cool feel about it and its a great song.

so thats it from me now, just one last thing..

i watched glee the other night and just loved it. its soo good. all the music and the people. it just makes me so happy. the program is just beyond camp but i love it!

so have a great weekend and tell me about any new music youre loving at them moment x