i thought that i was doing well but i just want to cry now..

sorry ive been gone so long. so much has happened. just had so many ups and downs. going through a bit of a shitty time, like an anti-climax.
and i just havent had time for music which is making everything way harder. but now the music i listen to is so random, like right now im listening to god and satan by biffy clyro. its depressingly beautiful.
ive got into some really wierd music this summer, stuff that i would never normally dream of listening to. im currently obsessed with hold yuh by gyptian ft. nicki minaj. nicki minaj is just so cool! shes like the best rapper around at the moment, i just love her.
ive been busy doing homework and overthinking everything. at least things are getting a bit more interesting but i feel like everythings happening too slowly, i want to lose control and fuck everything up.
anyway life is just hard. i dont really have time to blog anymore so i think basically i'll try and blog every now and then but we'll just see how it goes.
hope your all well x

everybodys changing and i dont feel the same

so ive been gone from the blogging world for a bit. theres just been so much happening. i feel like ive changed so much and so have my friends. we're just different people than we were at the beginning of this holiday. its like we've suddenly grown up and are doing the stuff we used to sit around chatting about.

anyway enough about my wierd life! music! this (above) is the music video for love the way you lie and im just in love with the song and really in love with megan fox! i just think shes so gorgeous and the exact look i try and look like but it never quite works out! eminem is my life and its just amazing having his music on the radio all the time.

ive made a few great playlists that i wanna share with you. this one is a pop rock sort of thing:

too fake by hockey, song away by hockey, kiss and tell by you me at six, lost in stereo by all time low, cosmic love by florence and the machine, high five swan dive nose dive by pulled apart by horses, shock horror by the view, same jeans by the view, the captain by biffy clyro, mountains by biffy clyro, your betrayal by bullet for my valentine.

speak soon x

what would you rather me be like? i aint ever gonna change, are you ever gonna realise?

these are pictures from t in the park (pictures in order: eminem, ellie goulding, biffy clyro, florence and the machine, muse, paolo nutini, vampire weekend)

i didnt really hear much of the coverage coz i actually went to wales this weekend! i went with one of my best friends and a friends babysitting job who we've all become really friendly with. shes 22 but has three kids and just got a divorce and when she was going through the divorce she became really good friends with one of my friends. anyway it was sort of a last minute thing but we went to this caravan on this farm in north wales in the middle of nowhere and just had a lovely time.. really relaxing and peaceful.

but im back for about a week and a bit coz im off to france really soon! im so excited about france!

so back to t in the park: the only performance ive watched is eminems performance which was epic. i swear i was nearly in tears. im so obsessed with eminem its not even funny!

anyway im off to afflecks palace with a few friends today and im just generally spending my holidays on the internet or watching films (i watched the ugly truth last night which was amazing! i now have a new crush on gerald butler and hes scottish! you know how much i love scottish accents!) x

(title lyrics from just be good to green by professor green ft lily allen)

where would i be if this were to go under? its a risk id take, im froze by desire, as if a choice id make

this is the last set of pics i have from jason lee perry.. that sounds like he gave them to me when actually i just copied them from his website! (title lyrics from the xx)

so ive been dead busy learning.. just taking a break from my chemistry learning, the exam is tomorrow! ive been listening to some amazing music while learning.. it was radio 1s big weekend so i heard so much great live stuff including ellie goulding (currently listening to her album which is amazing), biffy clyro and the lovely rihanna. oh also paramore, i love paramore so much!

also totally addicted to eminem's new single not afraid and miike snow's new single the rabbit. eminems song reminds me of when im gone, both songs brought me near to tears!

okay better get back to my chemistry.. wish me luck and good luck to you all! x

you say i love you boy, i know you lie, i trust you all the same, i dont know why

im not sure where any of these pictures are from but theyre all just gorgeous. dont you love the rumpled hair of the model in the first and last picture?! i love that sort of hair on guys. a bit like michael ceras hair in juno, just a great length.

anyway i havent told you yet the amazing news that i got an a in my gcse maths! i did it in november and got my mark a couple of days ago which is very exciting!

so last night i went to the sixth form open evening in the school that i wanna go to for sixth form and it was really interesting to speak to the a level teachers so that i actually sort of understand what im gonna be doing next year! i wanna do physics, chemistry, maths and business studies leading to doing physics in uni. im already doing an AS this year so i have some idea of what its gonna be like next year but it should be interesting moving schools and a levels are very different to gcses.

anyway enough about my education! lets talk music! the title lyrics are from biffy clyro from their song many of horror (which is grammatically incorrect but never mind) . i love this song its so beautiful and the lead singer (whos name ive forgotten) has the voice of an angel. i dont mean that he sounds like dido or anything he just has a gorgeous voice. (how many times have i said gorgeous in this post?!) also im obsessed with coco who records music under the name i blame coco. she has a song called caeser which she did with robyn and its coco has such a cool voice and and robyn has such a cool voice and together... its just amazing. if your interested in some new music this year then check it out and enjoy!

hot chip also have an amazing song out called one life stand which is gonna be huge! its got a really cool feel about it and its a great song.

so thats it from me now, just one last thing..

i watched glee the other night and just loved it. its soo good. all the music and the people. it just makes me so happy. the program is just beyond camp but i love it!

so have a great weekend and tell me about any new music youre loving at them moment x