i was a playboy from dubai to paris.. made our acquaintances on a sheet less mattress she pressed my lips she said this wont last long...

life is pretty shitty at the moment though i feel bad saying that coz after seeing what people went through in the holocaust, i mean thats real shit.

sorry you probably dont know what im on about!

i went on a history trip with my class to london and we went to the imperial war museum. it was quite a sobering experience. its like suddenly you realise that life is so easy. we watched accounts of people who went through the concentration camps, they saw their family die in front of them and they couldnt do anything. its just a scary thought.

so after watching that we then went to covent gardens and i did some serious retail therapy! shopping really is the best thing to get a smile out of me when im down!

so back to my first point. yeah life is being a bit shitty at the moment. just had some horrible mocks today and got even more tomorrow. i havent learnt for any of them! no that doesnt really deserve an exclamation mark. we had modules and then i thought id take a bit of a break from learning and now im too exhausted to learn, im gonna fail every fucking last one. i hate doing this coz its just so depressing. and today i found out my friend whos mum died last year, her dad has leukemia. its just so hard on her. so right im making a positive list:

• music totally helps when you cant go shopping! currently completely obsessed with the virgins who provided the wonderful title lyrics from their song private affair.
• im not failing science so at least that a start!
• i can still look at beautiful pictures and get weird and wonderful fashion inspirations. everywhere i walked in london, i saw different people wearing such amazing outfits, ive got so many ideas for outfits!
• i have my wonderful friends to laugh at! today my friend rivka brought a loo roll to school coz she has a cold and the teacher thought she has stolen it from the school toilets! shes a classic!
• GLEE! that is the reason for my happiness. just watched an episode, they should seriously show it to people going through depression, its just amazing!
• i still have chocolate. food really is the best when youre down and chocolate... its just immense

but most importantly i still have my dreams, ideas and inspirations. im actually feeling way happier after making that list! i advise anyone feeling down to make a positive list now! thanx for all your amazing blogs keeping me inspired x

we are what we dont see we miss everything daydreaming

so im back and ive got a dreadful cold and its not great going on a train when you really wanna be tucked up in bed but i went first class so it was nice and quiet with not many people around so i just read my company magazine and stared out of the window and admired the fit guy who was sitting way to far away from me so i had to stretch to look at him which didnt look very inconspicuous!

so today i was watching an interview with nelly furtado and i realised how much of a fan i am of hers. i loved (still love) im like a bird. its such a beautiful song that i think everyone can relate to. maneater was, and still is, such a massive song. everyone knows it and i remember when it came out, me and my brother were obsessed with it! then theres all good things which was written with chris martin and is such a beautiful song. and then recently she did broken strings with james morrison which i think every girl was obsessed with! its all beautiful and sad and amazing and sounds like pure heaven.

nelly furtado does have an amazing addictive voice but she is also very beautiful (me, jealous? no way!)

to go with my dreadful cold im currently listening to my pink playlist which consists of who knew, i dont believe you and sober. and its on repeat, i wish my voice sounded like that but my throat is nowhere near as sore as hers sounds! i woke up this morning from a dream in which my throat was really sore and i couldnt get any water coz i didnt have any money so as soon as i woke up i went to get a glass of water even though my throat wasnt sore! very strange!

so its the end of the weekend but have a good night x

nobody ever had a dream round here but I don't really mind that it's starting to get to me

i dont talk about them enough but the killers are really such a massive part of my life. i know every song of every album, ive loved their music for about 6 or 7 years which really is a long time to like a band when youre only a teenager. i was speaking to my friend and even though we are the top of the school, i still feel like tiny! so back to the killers, i think 'my' song from all their albums has to be bones because it just reminds me of me! i can so relate to it coz im so bony but its more than the lyrics, its the way it starts i mean that beginning still gives me an adrenaline rush! its such a distinctive song that could never be compared to any other song. its so unique and so exciting and has such character. its also dramatic and does what i always do, just break out into song! im like a musical that doesnt stop! but i only sing like a line of a song and its usually off key so not really like a musical! the music video has everyone turning into skeletons and is just one of their best music videos, check it out here. if you wanna buy one of their albums definitely buy hot fuss, their first album, coz its so fresh and beautiful and impossible to describe!

so people i have news! okay its not dead exciting but i am going to london tomorrow for a long weekend just to shop! i only decided to go on sunday coz i wanted to go shopping but im fed up town in manchester so im going to london to go to oxford street (and to visit my dad and cousins). i sound so shallow minded! oh well people can judge me but im just gonna go and have fun! so i will be back on sunday and i wont be blogging when im there so sorry for not checking out your blogs but i really need to pack! lovin the view and the xx at the moment. have a good night x

some sad news

i am leaving you. im just going to say it straight! i am leaving the wonderful blogging for a whole 6 days (me trying not to be melodramatic is like a fish surviving out of water ie its never gonna happen!) i am off to see my dad who lives in london and i am very excited. im going to the theatre, camden market and oxford street and possibly other shopping places. i love shopping and my dad is willing to take me. im quite excited as my dad is taking a few days off from work but a few days im just gonna go around london by myself which is just so cool. i remember last time i went and i just went to oxford street by myself then came back and let myself into my dads flat and i just felt so independent. thats something i am so grateful for. coz my mom hates shopping i have been shopping by myself for a long time. i got a debit card when i was twelve. thats the great thing about having divorced parents, you really have to be independent.

so abit of music to listen to:

• okay you know my florence obsession. just check her out. legendary.
• la rouxs song quicksand is my new obsession even though its quite old. la roux is just amazing and so talented.
• lily allen is so talented and she has come back with an amazing album.
• pink has just got the most gorgeous sexy voice. its amazing. im so desperate to have a voice like that. id do anything for it.
• calvin harris has got some amazing songs out at the moment namely ready for the weekend
• the streets-fit but you know it. just heard it on the radio and its so cool. the lyrics are so amazing. amazing is my new favourite word.
• nelly furtado. shes just done that flo rida song jump which is decent but i love some of her older stuff like maneater.
• run this town. im sure youve heard so much about this. its a monster! jay z, rihanna and kanye west. it cant be anything but amazing and they really dont disappoint with this killer of a tune!
• check out the goo goo dolls who are just amazing. they have some new stuff but iris is still my favourite. just beautiful music.

so thats enough i think if you find any good music then tell me about it and btw i may be able to do my blog from london but im not sure so if not bye everyone. have an amazing week without me! x