you talk about me like you own me baby thats not fair i told you i had someone else

i love this magical world of black and white..

i think today ill just let the pictures do the talking.....

xxx

i was a playboy from dubai to paris.. made our acquaintances on a sheet less mattress she pressed my lips she said this wont last long...

life is pretty shitty at the moment though i feel bad saying that coz after seeing what people went through in the holocaust, i mean thats real shit.

sorry you probably dont know what im on about!

i went on a history trip with my class to london and we went to the imperial war museum. it was quite a sobering experience. its like suddenly you realise that life is so easy. we watched accounts of people who went through the concentration camps, they saw their family die in front of them and they couldnt do anything. its just a scary thought.

so after watching that we then went to covent gardens and i did some serious retail therapy! shopping really is the best thing to get a smile out of me when im down!

so back to my first point. yeah life is being a bit shitty at the moment. just had some horrible mocks today and got even more tomorrow. i havent learnt for any of them! no that doesnt really deserve an exclamation mark. we had modules and then i thought id take a bit of a break from learning and now im too exhausted to learn, im gonna fail every fucking last one. i hate doing this coz its just so depressing. and today i found out my friend whos mum died last year, her dad has leukemia. its just so hard on her. so right im making a positive list:

• music totally helps when you cant go shopping! currently completely obsessed with the virgins who provided the wonderful title lyrics from their song private affair.
• im not failing science so at least that a start!
• i can still look at beautiful pictures and get weird and wonderful fashion inspirations. everywhere i walked in london, i saw different people wearing such amazing outfits, ive got so many ideas for outfits!
• i have my wonderful friends to laugh at! today my friend rivka brought a loo roll to school coz she has a cold and the teacher thought she has stolen it from the school toilets! shes a classic!
• GLEE! that is the reason for my happiness. just watched an episode, they should seriously show it to people going through depression, its just amazing!
• i still have chocolate. food really is the best when youre down and chocolate... its just immense

but most importantly i still have my dreams, ideas and inspirations. im actually feeling way happier after making that list! i advise anyone feeling down to make a positive list now! thanx for all your amazing blogs keeping me inspired x

youve been acting awful tough lately, smoking a lot of cigarettes lately, but inside youre just a little baby

i saved the picture above under the name 'tattooed beautiful boy with cig looking beautiful and lost' and i saved the guy underneath under the name 'smoking shirtless beauty'. i think that says it all!

can we just talk about how genius i am to find this lyric?! how well does it go with the photos?!! i was just listening to marina and the diamonds and i heard these lyrics in her beautiful song i am not a robot and theyre just perfect for the gorgeous photos.

i dont normally like male models but i do have a folder of the male models i think are just damn right beautiful and these two are just amazing. i dunno what it, maybe the tattoos or the beautiful 'broken but dont give a shit' look. does that make sense?!

okay lets talk music:

im still totally obsessed with glee. its just immense and just makes me smile so much! just writing about it gets me excited!! oh im a sad old soul!

im currently listening to the skream remix of in for the kill by la roux. its all dubstep and beautiful. oh i love it!

other bands im loving are the virgins, the drums and this morning i heard mr brightside by the killers on the radio: it was an epic moment singing along with a hairbrush while halfway through getting dressed so i was wearing my school shirt with my pj bottoms and my hair in one big curly mess! theres something amazing about hearing a song you love on the radio even if you have the album so could listen to it at any time. its those first few notes, the big adrenaline rush, is it weird i get adrenaline rushes from the killers and not from roller coasters (i hate roller coasters with a passion)?

sorry im so bad with writing posts. i try and keep up with all your blogs but i dont really have that much time to write. i was writing my english AS coursework with my friend and just coming up with total examiners porn (explanation: writing an essay that is so beautifully written and quoting all the right quotes if i dont get a good mark for this essay HEADS WILL ROLL!) For my essay im analysing an article from Grazia which is just wonderfully written and even has a reference to Florence (yes THE Florence from florence and the machine)

so it is time to leave you beautiful people once again. im going to london on monday on a school history trip just for one night but i cant wait to tell you all about it! x

you say i love you boy, i know you lie, i trust you all the same, i dont know why

im not sure where any of these pictures are from but theyre all just gorgeous. dont you love the rumpled hair of the model in the first and last picture?! i love that sort of hair on guys. a bit like michael ceras hair in juno, just a great length.

anyway i havent told you yet the amazing news that i got an a in my gcse maths! i did it in november and got my mark a couple of days ago which is very exciting!

so last night i went to the sixth form open evening in the school that i wanna go to for sixth form and it was really interesting to speak to the a level teachers so that i actually sort of understand what im gonna be doing next year! i wanna do physics, chemistry, maths and business studies leading to doing physics in uni. im already doing an AS this year so i have some idea of what its gonna be like next year but it should be interesting moving schools and a levels are very different to gcses.

anyway enough about my education! lets talk music! the title lyrics are from biffy clyro from their song many of horror (which is grammatically incorrect but never mind) . i love this song its so beautiful and the lead singer (whos name ive forgotten) has the voice of an angel. i dont mean that he sounds like dido or anything he just has a gorgeous voice. (how many times have i said gorgeous in this post?!) also im obsessed with coco who records music under the name i blame coco. she has a song called caeser which she did with robyn and its coco has such a cool voice and and robyn has such a cool voice and together... its just amazing. if your interested in some new music this year then check it out and enjoy!

hot chip also have an amazing song out called one life stand which is gonna be huge! its got a really cool feel about it and its a great song.

so thats it from me now, just one last thing..

i watched glee the other night and just loved it. its soo good. all the music and the people. it just makes me so happy. the program is just beyond camp but i love it!

so have a great weekend and tell me about any new music youre loving at them moment x

dont let go, never give up, its such a wonderful life

this is a montage/collage (what the hell do you call it?!) from the bbc website. i think ive used all these pictures but they look really cool together.
so i thought for this post i could go through the top five of the 'bbc sound for 2010' list. so here goes!

1. ellie goulding-i just checked out my blog and i realised that ive never written about ellie goulding so heres a first! she won this title and i do love her music. under the sheets has really grown on me and she is the one new talent (except marina) that me and my friend agree on. i just love how soft and beautiful her music is. its like snowpatrol but softer and more dance sort of music. i guess shes more electric than snowpatrol. ellies music is really made to fit the dance genre but snowpatrol is more acoustic and about the guitars and shes about the tempo and everything. her music is a bit dubstep. and that was me trying to explain an artists sound! i really am crap at explaining just check out under the sheets!
2. marina and the diamonds-heres a singer i have talked about before and i just love her music. shes like a modern kate bush doing pop. what a beautiful voice and her lyrics make so much sense but they are very clever. oh i just thought of the word to describe ellie goulding- electro pop. so back to marina, i love all her songs but one of my favourites has to be i am not a robot. marina makes some great music videos so check those out on youtube. she just has lots of fun with the music videos, i love it when artists do that. i think it was cornerstone by the arctic monkeys when all you have is stupid alex turner (hes a cool guy just hate his hair) just singing to the camera for 4 mins. hate arctic monkeys for that! the killers also make amazing music videos. right back to our list..
3. delphic-i dont know a lot about them but doubt is just a great song. they really make such beautiful music.
4. hurts-i LOVE this band and i only know one of their songs but its just beautiful. i know normally the title lyrics i use are very depressing. actually i cant remember when i used a happy title lyric but this title lyric is from hurts and its just beautiful. their song, wonderful life reminds me a lot of dont give up by kate bush and peter gabriel. they are both about not giving up and staying strong. they were both also made for a time of recession when people want to just give up. i love songs which have a strong message.
5. the drums-ive just got completely obsessed with their song lets go surfing. maybe its to do with the snow! im getting quite fed up of the snow and someone told me its gonna carry on like this for six weeks. six fucking weeks! i hope its not true

so thats the top five. i looked at the full list but the rest i havent heard of except that stupid daisy girl. her music is dreadful. i hope it doesnt do well coz then it will always be on the radio and i do not wanna hear it.

so if youre bored check out these artists or go to cinema and watch sherlock holmes coz its amazing. such a fun film to watch cya x

when i see you walking with her i have to cover my eyes, everytime you leave with her something inside of me dies

ive been away for too long! sorry i havent been checking out all your amazing blogs but i had to move out of the house coz my brother got mumps (even though he had the vaccine) and i didnt want to get it and then my mum went to london. anyway so ive had about a week and a half away from my beloved computer!

so this is very exciting coz this is my 100th post! ive been blogging for about 7 months now! i cant believe its been that long! it feels like a few months ago and that makes me feel so old but im only 15. it reminds me of the killers lyric 'im so much older than i can take' except i feel like my age doesnt match how old i feel like the other day i was sitting there with my radio and a cup of tea and thinking this is the life and then i was like this is ridiculous! im a teenager, im supposed to be irresponsible and stupid but im just so not like that. anyway how did i get onto this?!!

hope you had an amazing new year and some of the bands that i think (and hope) are gonna be big this year are:

1. delphic-theyre song doubt is just beautiful. i havent heard much else of theirs but i cant wait to hear more.
2. temper trap-we all know them for sweet disposition but their new song , which i cant remember the name of, is just gorgeous. its not like sweet disposition but just amazing. what the hell is it called?!!
3. i love marina and the diamonds and shes definitely tipped to be big this year.
4. the drums-im just listening to their EP which is just so cool. very summery but still sounds beautiful. its quite laid back and fun. check it out here.

so thats it! have a great week ive got lots of exams now so sorry if it takes me a long time to catch up with the comments. its back to school tomorrow after two days off coz of the snow but just two days and then its the weekend! x

i took my babys breath beneath the chandlier of stars and atmosphere and watched her disappear..

(starting from the top: when harry met sally, 2 500 days of summer pictures and 2 juno pictures)

i like indie quirky films. theyre just what im into. i do like other films like i watched sex and the city the other day and i loved it but indie films are just what i like best. so anyway i bought nick and noras inifinite playlist because it looked really indie and it has michael cera in who is just such an amazing actor and absolutely gorgeous. anyway, look i'll put it bluntly, it was dreadful. everything about it was dreadful i mean even a dreadful chick flick like the holiday was a better film. so let me explain why:

• firstly it is set over one night. thats never a good idea with a film. the only film where it kind of worked was kidulthood but its very rare for it to work and well in this film it was their biggest mistake. because it was set over one night nothing much really happened coz how much can happen in a night? i mean look at a film like 500 days of summer, i dont want to give anything away in case you havent watched it but but that film is set over a year and a half and when harry met sally is set over like 20 years or something ridiculous like that but i love it like that. its just the way a good film needs to be set for it to work.


• some of the characters are just really annoying. michael cera is amazing as usual and there are these 3 gay guys who were really cute and funny but everyone else was really really annoying and like the main female character just cant act. its really irritating. it irritates me to say this but actually all the girls in this film are bad actresses and just so boring. i guess you cant do much with a character when its only set over one night but still they were really rubbish and hurt my eyes to watch.


• sorry to bring kidulthood up again its just the only other film i can think of thats also only set over a day. so yeah in kidulthood so much happens in that day. i dont want to give away the whole film but if youve watched the film youll understand (btw if you havent see it then check it out now, its so brilliantly written and really honest about what its like to be a teenager in east london) nick and noras infinite playlist was just boring. i wa waiting for something to happen in the long 90 minutes it lasted and honestly nothing happened. it was just dreadfully written.


• and lastly, i was looking forward to a good soundtrack running through the film, well i was very disappointed. as well as nothing happening in the film, the soundtrack was crap as well. and that was the last straw

so anyone wanna buy it off me?!!

save some face, you know youve only got one..

so rage is at no. 1!! i couldn't listen on sunday night but i was listening to the radio on monday morning and they said that rage against the machine is no. 1 and i just so excited coz i was hoping they would do it but deep down i knew joe would get it and by next year we would all forget the rage thing. well thankfully i was very wrong! killing in the name is just such an amazing song and compared to joes song, i mean joes song is just boring and doesnt even deserve to be in the top 10 but thats another story! im so excited about rage being at no. 1 im finishing every sentence with an exclamation mark! okay im stopping.

i have finally broken up from school although i am now supposed to get to some hard-core learning which is btw never gonna happen but we have been told this holiday should be treated as study leave and not a holiday. WTF?

my sister is at my dads in london so i have the computer to myself so forget hard-core learning, im gonna be doing hard-core blogging btw my form teacher did not use the actual words 'hard-core learning' shes like 60 although it would have been really funny if she would have!!

my current playlist is look after you by the fray, run by snowpatrol, i cant stay by the killers and ghosts and stuff by deadmau5. its a bit weird but it feels right for the winter. the snow just isnt stopping, it just reminds me of when we went in the winter to scotland and we would get stuck in all kinds of stuff like one day we were stuck in this snow blizzard, it was just crazy!

im waiting for the postman to resume coz i have a dvd that should be here by now but they haven't come for the past two days, its nick and noras infinite playlist and i cant wait to tell you about it when i finally get it!

okay im gonna leave you now coz run has just come on and i need to sing along! x

do you want the truth or something beautiful? just close your eyes and make believe...

i dunno whats inspiring me to use these pictures today. probably the cold. its snowing! it started on thursday and right now im looking out the window and big snowflakes are falling. theres something beautiful about snow falling but because its manchester and all good things have to come to an end, the snow will turn to slush by tomorrow or worse it will all freeze and the road will just turn into an ice rink. thats what happened last year and i was slipping and sliding to school!

so the title lyrics are from paloma faith. she did do you want the truth live for radio 1. check it out here. its really beautiful stuff and she does sound amazing live. also her outfit is so cool!

also florence did a cover of last christmas which is just immense last year and you can hear it until christmas but only if your in the uk so definitely check it out here if you can! i love florence! i think i should change the blog name to I LOVE FLORENCE!

loving all your comments at the moment and i will try and be better at checking at all your amazing blogs. i love the holidays although i wont really be relaxing since ive got exams in janurary but at least i can get some kind of lie in instead of waking up at 7:3o every morning. its such a killer in the winter which reminds me im currently loving the killers first album hot fuss. its so experimental and interesting and brandons voice is just so beautiful.

have a lovely day x

i run to the river and dive straight in, i pray that the water will drown out the din, but as the water fills my mouth, it couldnt wash the echoes out

i was just looking into my picture folder of musicians and i was just drawn to each of these pictures. let me explain (in numbers):

1. florence-i wasnt going to use a florence picture coz ive used all of them but then i saw this picture which i havent used before and its just so beautiful. i love the way florence performs. she also always paints her nails gorgeous dark shades which i get really excited about! is it weird to get excited about nails?! well kidsister (fourth picture) wrote a whole song about them so im not the only one!
2. eminem-i have been listening to the slim shady LP which i have to say is genius. i talked about it in the last post so if u wanna know more then scroll down!
3. how cute is this picture of la roux?!! shes one of the people who makes me proud to have short hair. she just looks soo cool and individual which is exactly what i want my short hair to look like but my hair is really shoulder length so its not quite the same!
4. kidsister-i just love her. shes just crazy and makes such great music. shes so upfront and has such great attitude. she just has so much energy, she really does remind me of pink even though her music is very different. im really having problems describing what i love about her shes just immense (i love that word!)
5. how great is bleached blonde hair on guys?! i dont like blond guys but bleached blonde is a whole other story. i loved eminem with his bleached hair. it just went with the whole 'dont give a fuck' attitude. mr hudsons bleached hair is a bit too neat for me. it looks like he touches it up every few weeks. i like it when it looks really in need of a touch up. sorry im so specific about these things. okay lets just forget blondes and keep to the black/brown haired boys!

so thats it for now and sorry if i dont check out your blogs but the school show is in less than a week so im soo stressed at the moment! x

look in my eyes, youre killing me, killing me all i wanted was you

doesnt that feel so long ago? i feel so far from summer right now wrapped up in my dressing gown thinking about getting up to make a cup of tea.

sorry about the depressing title lyric. i dunno what has come over me. its just to deep into winter to have a cute title lyric!

just listening to pink live. she was on the chris moyles show on radio 1 so im listening to it on the iplayer coz i was in school! love her! she has the coolest talking voice. her and kidsister both have the best american accents. i dont normally like an american accent but they should do a song together coz it would just be really beautiful.

my hair is looking amazing today! its just gone all curly with lots of body, it l0oks like something from a l'oreal advert!

at the moment im debating whether to buy a camera or a great pair of jeans. the camera would mean you could actually see me but a great pair of jeans would just be such a good investment. this pink concert is just immense check it out here about 2 and a half hours into the show (i dont think you can hear this if your not in the uk but im not sure)

okay i think im gonna do my nails now for the weekend. how about black this weekend?

love you all. have a great weekend and i cant wait to tell you what i actually end up buying! x

ps if you want to listen to some beautiful music then check out the big gig in the sky by pink floyd. just such a beautiful piece of music cya x

i dont give a fuck coz God sent me to piss the world off

so as you can see ive gone a bit grease crazy! me and my friend watched grease when we were like 11 and we both thought it was a disgusting film about dirty people (ive changed so much!) and really it is a disgusting film about dirty people but thats why i love it so much now! i watched it again a few months ago for the first time in ages and just totally fell in love with it and i just watched it again on saturday night and i just have such a big kunikie (how the hell do you spell his name?!) crush although i hear hes an alcoholic old man now (why do all good things come to an end?)

those songs are just constantly in my head now as well as eminems album slim shady LP which is just so genius. its 10 years old now but eminem just had so much energy and ideas and just general fucked up stories to tell. nowadays hes matured a lot which i think is a good thing for him as a person but not for his music. definitely check out the album but dont stick it on when youre mums in the room, all parents HATE eminem. he is really offensive but thats what i love about him. he isnt afraid of saying exactly what he thinks, he just gets all the shit out there. okay and now since listening the the album ive been swearing way more! btw title lyric is eminems (it cant really have been from grease could it!!)

so my nearest and dearest it is time to leave you.

love you forever and always (wow im getting so emotional!)

rebecca x

let your anger rise and we'll fly and we'll fall and we'll burn

it keeps raining and i wanna be caught in a moment like this but weirdly it never happens! like in films and theyre running in the rain coz love is stronger than anything.

okay im back to reality! (back to reality oh there goes gravity... thats an eminem lyric that i always sing when i say back to reality. i think its from lose yourself)

so i actually have a reason for writing this post!

i was reading a book questionnaire onlauras blog and i decided to adapt it to make it a music questionnaire so here goes:

(album titles in italics, song titles in bold)

last album i bought:

la rouxs self titled album and deadmau5 with random album title.

i love the deadmau5 album coz its just great to have on in the background. like great chill out music. la rouxs album is just immense. her voice is just beautiful and really powerful.

last album i got in the post:

i never order albums online coz its just to organized for me. i always buy albums as a sort of spur of the moment thing. theres something to do before im 16, buy an album online!

the first album ive listened to over and over:

im not sure what it was maybe snow patrol eyes open. yeah it probably was that. what a great album. thatsmy winter album. i always get really into it in the winter and then in the summer i just dont listen to it at all. i just has this snugly feel. does that make sense?!! its hard to explain a feeling but yes my review of the album: its snugly!

music everyone should listen to:

i think muse changed the way i listen to music so their music should pretty much be compulsory to listen to! maybe also eminem for his lyrics. its weird coz ive grown up with his music since i was like 8 or 9 ive been so into his music! i dont think i really appreciated his lyrics then, i just liked his music and his voice. even his voice though is offensive!

best place to listen to music:

i like having music on all the time but when i really want to listen to an album properly then ill curl up in bed and listen. it can always get a bit annoying listening to music with friends coz we all have such different tastes.

i was thinking about it the other day and i realised im so different to all my friends so i told one of my friends this and she was like 'rebecca no ones like you!' charming!

an album i just bought for the cover:

i never really randomly buy an album like i always only buy an album from an artist which i know loads about and really love the music so ive never bought an album for the cover but i do love the sams town cover.

scariest music ive ever heard:

hmm. im not sure about this. i like scary gothic music so it doesnt really scare me but i think bones by the killers could be quite scary . i was watching the music video with my cousin and she was like 'what the hell is this?!' i had to change it coz she just found it so weird but i love it! its one of the cleverest music videos(in my opinion!) check out my post about it here.

most romantic song:

i think it would have to be look after you by the fray just because of the gorgeous clana music video on youtube. i you type in 'clana look after you' then youll find it. i never even knew about smallvillle until i watched that and really smallville is just crap but that video is beautiful. also sweet disposition is beautiful (by the temper trap).

music that changed my life:

all music changes my life in some way but as i mentioned before it would have to be muse.

albums ive re listened to the most:

umm it would have to be eyes open or maybe hot fuss by the killers.

music i like that no one else seems to:

i always like those 2nd singles that everyone else hates. artists always come out with their 1st single and im like this is crap and then i hear the second single and im like GENIUS!

this happened with spaceman by the killers and i love robbie willians second single although ive forgotten the name but i can tell everyone doesnt like it!

music i dont like that everyone else seems to:

i think it would have to be stuff like basshunter and cascada. i just hate it! im not really big into N-DUBZ or the sort of RnB that jay sean does. i think a song has to have at least one of these things to be good:

1. an interesting melody
2. a beautiful voice singing
3. amazing lyrics

in my opinion muse do all three in almost any song they make but things like basshunter are just dreadful coz the lyrics are dreadful, the melody (if u could call it that) is boring as hell and basshunters voice is pretty average so i just find the music boring and mildly irritating.

can i just say that i like a lot of music. i like to listen to a massive range of music so there are actually only a small amount of artists that i really dont like because if i had to write a list of music i love it would be way way longer than the list of music i dont like!

number of albums i own:

i dunno. not as many as i would like but i never have enough money to buy albums so something like florences album i love, but i dont actually have the album i just listen to it on the internet.

must have music accessory:

that would have to be ears! and an open heart to absorb the music and let it move you and change you and teach you weird and wonderful things.

music destination i want to go to:

im desperate to go to glastonbury oh and i wouldnt mind going to ibiza. its like the capital of club music and im a sucker for a good remix!

top three favourite artists:

im gonna answer this question as top three artists i listen to most coz my top three artists change by the hour like now its chase and status, nirvana and muse!

1. the killers
2. florence and the machine

i cant think of a third one. it could be muse or la roux or pink or so many other artists so its my top two artists i listen to the most!

the reason i started a music blog:

once i started reading blogs i wanted to make one and since everyone has a fashion blog and at the time i didnt know any other music blogs so instead of writing about my fashion inspirations i decided to write about music although fashion sometimes creeps its way into my posts!

so that it from me with my longest post i think ever! this is longer than my coursework! have a great day x

I wanted freedom bound and restricted, i tried to give you up but im addicted

the title lyrics are there to explain my addiction to beautiful colourless photos since every post (bar the last one) seems just to be in black and white.

at the moment im just so busy. ive got loads of coursework and the school show is in less then three weeks! i do love doing the show but its dead stressful!

did i tell you about my new leggings? i dont think i did but anyway i got these new denim leggings(i hate the term jeggings!) and they are so comfy. normally i just wear ankle socks through the winter and occasionally tights but ive decided not to freeze this winter so its in with the legging and not really out with the ankle socks coz i still wear them!

i swear ive turned more boring than my grandma! so lets talk music! (in bullet points. i think better with dots)

• this band called tulips were on the radio last night and sounded really cool. i definitely need to check out some of their stuff if i have a free minute so if youre bored then check them out for me and tell me what you think!
• i realised this morning that young forever by jay z is the perfect song for new moon or actually any of the films in the twilight saga. next time you hear the song just listen out for the chorus and listen to the lyrics. theyre just perfect for twilight!
• i love love love the 3oh!3 song with katy perry. i cant remember what its called but its just so good! me and my friend just love these guys coz they take themselves so seriously and theyre such idiots!
• and lastly i heard the mariah carey song this morning ( which one i hear you cry? the all i want for christmas one you idiot! actually i shouldnt insult my dear readers. look i think of you guys as friends enough that i dont have to be superficially nice. actually i was never superficially nice!) so yeah back to the song. it actually hate her but that song just puts me in such a festive mood! i cant belive its already december!

so that enough from me hopefully ill post again soon. good night x